My secret love:
For always making me laugh when I feel like crying, for turning depression into true laughter, and for feeding me with hopes of better times when I feel down. I love you sweetheart, thank you so much fur just being there!

Clubs I'm in:

I love DMC so much, and I'll ever love it! Dante and Vergil just rock!

People I like best:


Inspired by

Haha first of all I need to say something: IT SNOWED LAST NIGHT! Yeah, we FINALLY got snow! The world's sugary white! ^_^
Awww that always makes me damn happy and I don't know why. I can feel like shit, but when I wake up and all world is white I just feel great. Might be because it's quite rare over here...

Well now... back to topic I guess... ^^

The world of my dreams would be a quite minimalistic medieval one. It'd be hard to live without a PC or anything else, but hell I can play three instruments, so I'd at least find something to do. ^^
There would be a looot of nature, and i think I'd live in a small village, surrounded by deep woods, a river and a small lake with crystal clear water. There'd be mountains too, not far away, with beautiful waterfalls.
A few small ranges, and a tavern, where bards would play every evening and one could drink met untill breaking down. Hell I LOVE met...

Then, our village would be part of a kingdom, that lives in peace with the surrounding ones. (God, I'm so damn romantic if it comes to stuff like that) and we'd have a more city - like capital too. We'd go there once a month, to buy supplies for our village, as well as selling products we got.
We'd have a library too, and other stuff you need. And I think it would be quite nice with all the surrounding nature. To just wander through it, or sit by the lake and talk.
I guess I'd be a little nobody, a bard or something, but no one people would know all over the country. And I would not be interested to work for the king or stuff like that. I like to live an easy live, and I don't need too much influence. In fact, I think that would be too much anyway.

Guess I could go on like this for hours... but it's okay^now. I really think love was something else back then, and even talking to a normal person felt different. Nowadays with all our technique, and our hectic world, people do not know each other properly. They marry after one month of relationship or flirt on the internet, and if they meet up personally they can't even find a topic for talking. And then, you hardly know your neighbours today, even if you live in a house next to other houses. And in a huge house with flats to rent it's even worse.
I'm sure that a village knew each other back then, and they could find topics to have a conversation about on their marketplace or while just meeting in the streets. They didn't have a telephone to make up a date, they actually had to go to the othe's houses and ask. It must have been a lot more personal then... Somehow I miss things like that in our society today, even if I never got to know it, but even hearing about it makes one long for it in my oppinion.

People hardly know anything about proper comunication with all our technique today and I fear I can not exclude me here either. It's sad but it's true, that's why the world of my dreams comes without all those stuff, even without telephones and TV and anything.
If all our technique would break one day, we'd not know what to do with ourselves, and sometimes I think it wouldn't be bad if people learned it a new. A month without anything would be a good thing to try, even without energy, but I think not many people would even dare to try it... ^^
I would, if I got the chance to, but I think I'd be glad to be back in our world then, too.

I'd lie if I'd say that I could live without all those things we know, but if I'd live in a orld that doesn't know all that stuff? I'm sure that I could stand it. Knowing that something is like it is, and you cannot change it anymore often helps.

Sometimes I wonder why we dream anyway. Most of my dreams take place in a strange city, where I KNOW, that it is meant to by the one I was born, but things are different. Some things are recognizable, but others look strange, but I can still say which street that is. And then, tehre are my schools, both of which I attended, and they're mixed up in a strange way. And I always find myself running from it, and down to the subway to escape. The subway looks strange, I never saw that station before. I mean... I know that not far from where it is in my dream IS a station, but it's really different, and I can't help myself to fear down there.
And then, instead of going home, I go to a building, that looks reall normal from the outside. But in the inside it is strange. It seems to have one or two towers, with round stairwas and a bright red carpet, where you have to run up or down from floor to floor. But then, you'll NEVER reach the top, and from the outside you can't even see those thowers. There's one room inside of the building I go to. It's a mixture of serveral ones I know, hard to describe but colorful and it even has my PC stuff in it... Oo Plus internet, and there's someone else I never recognize. We seem to share that room and hide from something, but I can't say what it is.
I feel I kinda like that buidling, but I dunno what it should mean...

Every flat of someone I visit in that specific deram seems to be a mixture of several one's I've ever seen. And even our station looks kinda strange. Instead of running through a tunnel to reach the stairway get to the platform, the platform is UNDER tha tunnel, the train would usually run over. And then... *shudders* it's kinda purple instead of bright red, even if the rest looks the same. Plus it takes a strange route, not the usual one... xD
It's not the world I would like to live in, because there's something I TRULY fear and I can't say what. I can't even recognize the faces of most of the people. Either I KNOW who that is, or not. I wouldn't call it a nightmare, but it's strange. It seems to be a whole world i tend to wake up in, when I go to bed. Not every night, but quite often.

When I was younger I had a dream, that came almost every night, ad it definitely had a meaning. There were even areas, like sand or whatever, ti could have been anything, and then that even place got cracks or anything that would cause its evenness to wear off. Plus I could hear voices growing louder and louder until I thought my head would explode. It always scared me to hell, but the only meaning it had, was that something would change in my life, and I had it for years. And then, not that I would have known it before, but something HUGE DID change, and those dreams were history from that day on.

Well and finally I dreamt a whole french lesson in advance the night before it really happened. ^^" THAT was kinda funny because I KNOW what would happen next. ^^

Uh damn you Phantom for making me think that early in the morning... xD But I hope you're satisfied now. ^^"




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